The past few days have not been very good. But I am trying to make the best of it.

My Wii scale was all wrong until I fixed it so I really have not lost as much weight as I thought I had. But, incidentally, it motivated me more than anything because now I want to see that number for real. I've lost another pound and that's twenty four total. Considering how much I need to lose, it seems like not much but at least that's twenty four that I don't have to worry about losing anymore.

Something in particular ruined my day. I'm pretty positive I'm not allowed to talk about it, but I'm really hoping that things work out. If they don't, I may lose Josh to Oldham County and I am seriously hoping that won't be the case. I honestly have no idea what I would do.

I still have yet to go job-hunting and I am starting to get really stressed out because of this car thing. I just may have to wait until fall. Since I may not have to go to Morehead after all, it stresses me out just a little less. Just, living with my parents for as long as I may is less than ideal.

First things first. I've been a pretty irritable person my entire life, but lately I've just been annoying myself. I'm annoyed with basically my entire family, I'm jealous of people that I have no desire to be. That sucks. I was doing well up until today. I think it's the weather. If it were sunny outside, I bet I would feel a lot better. I'm not the only person without a life, so I need to just get over it.

Also, Raeann, thank you for that list of fifty thing, we'll definitely try that. Josh rarely has time off of work and he may not feel the need to do this but he is normally pretty sappy so it may be something he will like.

Here are diet tips. I'll try to arrange them to make them a bit organized. They're mostly from Woman's World, and they are things that anyone can do, not some crazy cabbage soup plan.

I ate McDonald's today so I will take my vinegar and fish oil tomorrow and see if it does work or if I just think it does. =|

Food
*Eat mustard- Turmeric (the spice that gives mustard its golden hue) reduces weight gain and slows the growth of fat tissues.

*Take vinegar (most commonly, apple cider vinegar)- When we consume extra vinegar, we produce less insulin. The acid in vinegar may alter metabolism in muscle cells and actually promote fat burning- therefore resisting weight gain. Vinegar is also a natural appetite suppressant (just 2 tablespoons of vinegar a day can make you feel 200% more satisfied). **I mix a tablespoon of apple cider vinegar with apple juice, it still tastes pretty nasty but it's a lot worse if you just down it by itself. Plus, if you take a drink of apple juice right afterward (that doesn't have vinegar in it) the taste goes away immediately**

*Prevent insulin spikes with oatmeal- Just five servings a week will make you lose twice as much belly fat as you normally would.

*Eat walnuts- 1 ounce a day stops the hormone neuropeptide Y from forming. This boosts belly fat loss 62% in three months. Actually, three ounces of any type of nut daily will help you lose one inch around your middle a month, and it triples the odds of keeping it off permanently.

*Detox with lemon juice- Just putting a lemon slice in your tea or water can help you effortlessly shed pounds, feel energized and get rid of toxins, say researchers. Because of its unique mix of phytonutrients, lemon juice boosts metabolism and enhances the liver's ability to break down trapped fats and pollutants by an amazing 30%. 

*Seafood- Salmon, shrimp (thank God), and other fish makes you stay full two hours longer than you would otherwise. Fitting in 12 oz. of seafood weekly can help you shed nine pounds in one month. Fish's Omega-3 fats increase production of leptin, a hormone that shuts down between-meal hunger pangs. **I just take fish oil supplements... they are pretty cheap. It says "dietary supplement" on the bottle but it's nothing dangerous, a lot of doctors will have their patients take them anyway. My grandparents and parents take them for cholesterol.**   

*Coconut- Coconut oil is nature's best source of medium-chain fatty acids (MCFAs), fats that go directly to the liver, where they increase calorie-burning by up to 30%. MCFAs also curb appetite, so you'll eat less. **Study proven dose: 6 oz. coconut meat; 1.5 cups shredded coconut; 2 tablespoons of coconut oil. Choose one daily. Also, coconut oil may improve thyroid function, which increases metabolism**

*Avocado- Avocado is loaded with omega-9 fats. They work inside the body cells to speed the conversion of food and fat into energy, boosting your metabolic rate as much as 5%. 

*Organic eggs- They contain up to 19 times more healthy omega-3 fatty acids than regular eggs.

**Abby, from the Biggest Loser, used a 1,200 calorie approach, but once a week, she allowed herself 2,400 calories. "It's a shock to your system that boosts your metabolism". 

Exercise

Apparently, yoga is the best thing that you can do. That is boring to me but I am trying to do more of it. 
Also, this is not really "exercising" but if you fidget it is supposed to help you lose weight. "Mayo Clinic researchers found that toe-tapping, stretching, and other antsy movements burn up 350 calories per day!"

Comfort-Food Craving?

*Ask yourself, "Am I actually hungry?"
*Get a journal and write about your feelings if you are not physically hungry: you're probably emotional eating.
*Before you eat, do something mood-boosting like taking a bath, or something else you enjoy. You'll probably forget to eat.
*Make sure to think of how you'll probably feel disappointed in yourself after you eat when you aren't hungry.
**I know that's pretty lame, but it works for me...haha**

  Random

*Research shows that chewing gum helps fight cravings, relieve stress and lower cortisol levels.

*Studies also show that the scent of pink grapefruit can curb cravings in 60 seconds.

 

Lily had her kittens today. I am really excited about seeing them, because I know there are a ton.

For the past couple of mornings, I have been eating oatmeal, taking a tablespoon of apple cider vinegar, and a Fish Oil supplement...and, of course, exercising. It seems to be working, as I've lost almost two pounds.

I've been going through some old magazines my grandma gave me and I've collected a bunch of random little weight loss tips. If anyone is interested, I'll post them.

I also made a list to try and help with my self-esteem and it actually did. Sitting down and making a list forced me to think positively, so it gave me a boost.

I entitle it:

Good Things About Me

My looks

*I have good hair

* I can do makeup well

*When I wear makeup, I have a pretty face

*I'm "well-endowed"
*I have cute feet

*I have cute ears

*My nose isn't weird

*My eyebrows don't have to be plucked/tweezed/waxed/etc.
*I have naturally blonde hair so if I forget to shave my legs, it's not a big deal.

*I'm hygienic (today doesn't count).

*I have dimples.

*Braces made my teeth nice.

*I like my sense of style.

*I have a nice... derriere. 

*My face makes my Native American heritage evident.

My personality

*People tend to want to be my friend.

*I am reliable and I know that is rare.

*I am easy to get along with.
*I crack myself up. Either I am easily amused or I am decently funny.

*I am smart, but not weird about it (like those really weird kids on Jeopardy who you feel bad for because you know they can't have friends).

*I am quick-witted.
*I am unique- I have never met another person like me, and I don't try to be like anyone else (granted, everyone says that).

*I stand up for what I believe in.

*I have never done anything I didn't want to.

*I know what I want and (usually) know how to make it happen.

*I am physically active (is that a personality trait?)
*If I care about you, I will do just about anything I can for you.

*I am trustworthy. Unless you're being dumb.

*The dumbest things happen to me so I always have really good stories.

*My overall personality must be pretty good, because boys tend to like me and I know it is not because of my slim figure.

*I can admit when I'm wrong but only when I am wrong, not when you think I am wrong.

*I have "good quirks".
*I am a compassionate person and I wish I could save the world.

*I have goals.
*I am polite.

*I don't care enough about what people think to let it stop me from having fun.

*I'm competitive (but in a good way).

My talents

*I am pretty good at drawing.

*I am good at painting.

*I have a knack for decorating/arranging (until I actually have to do it).

*I sing well.

*I can pick things up quickly.

*I am good at crocheting, and other little hobbies.
*I'm good with words. I can write a five-pager in an hour, tops.

*I don't know if it's a "talent", but animals tend to be attracted to me.

*I'm good at tetherball and badminton!
*Babies like me for some reason. A lot. I sort of wish they didn't, because they look at me and smile at me in Wal-Mart and Kroger and it's just a little odd after a while.

*I'm good at just about every game I play.

My relationships

*My boyfriend is amazing and I am finally the only one that he wants (so apparently I am doing something correctly).
*All of my grandparents are alive and I have great relationships with all of them.

*My dad is one of my best friends. And he's not a drunken deadbeat! That is rare around these parts! Good on ya, Dad!

*I may not have a lot of friends now but with all of the amazing memories I have, I know it isn't because of me.

I hope this doesn't come off as conceited. I wrote it for myself first. I just hope it inspires someone to do something like this, because it really does help to look at it if you are having a day that's not so good. Plus, I really like reading things like this that people make about themselves. So you should do one also!

Today was an alright day. Obviously one should not expect much fun to be had when one has to take their grandmother to the podiatrist to get their toenails clipped. I love my grandma and everything but she is only good in small doses.

Anyway. I came home, and my cat Gizmo was following me around absolutely everywhere, meowing. No big deal, I figured she was just really hungry since it was 4 and I feed my critters at 3. I fed her and she ate a lot more than usual. No big deal again, I knew she was pregnant. But she continued to follow me around and meow. Then out of nowhere, she ran about ten feet, stopped, turned around to look at me, and continued meowing. This is when I noticed she wasn't fat anymore, so I knew she had had her kittens, like...today. I decided to follow her and she led me right to them. There are two and they are orange, so obviously Joben is the father. Good ole Joben, doing the proverbial hit it and quit it. Obviously, since I haven't seen him since he came to my house to spread his seed. He smelled woman and now he is gone. I'm glad Gizzy only had two because she is very small for her age, I don't think she could have handled more. But I am going to try and get her fixed, as well as Lily when she has hers. Which, I thought she would, way before Gizzy. She is HUGE. Her stomach is so big that she has to lay on her back, which is ironic because this is what got her into the position in the first place. Flooz.

ALSO I had a revelation which has brightened my life quite a bit.
I realized that people suck and have changed for the worse (obviously not everyone, but a lot).
At first, I thought it would be a horrible thing and I would never get over it.
But I am extremely glad that they have, because if not, I might miss them a little bit.

Also also, there is something that I REALLY want to say. Like, I really really need to say it.
It could potentially be hurtful though, and I'm not a jerk for the hell of it.
It would feel really nice to say, though. I never hold back what I am thinking, this is a rarity.
And I don't even think that being the goddamn ray of sunshine that I am will keep me from it for long.

Some things just do not require an apology.
Raeann, I think I need to ask you. Just to make sure.
You can be my moral police.

Also, this is typical of me. I always tend to focus on the negative.
Lately, I have felt like I am fading almost. I generally have this big personality and I guess I'm used to being given attention. It's not that way anymore so I either feel like I am losing my identity or that no one cares.
I normally don't like to pity myself, it's just something I'm not used to.

Tomorrow, I am going to sit and write down every single positive thing that I can think of about myself and my life. It's something that I just don't think about so I feel like I have nothing positive to focus on when I'm feelin' blue. Theoretically, though, my life is just way too good to sit-n-bitch all the time.

I feel like I should add that I am not sad about anything right now. At least nothing particular. It's just something I've been thinking about for a long time and never really had the idea to get it out of the way.

Moms make the worst Facebook friends! Always misinterpreting your statuses and bugging you to write how much you love your mom and whatnot.

Anyway, I was petting my cat Gizzy today and discovered that she has a very firm tummy. So I ventured on her underside, and she has teats! SWOLLEN teats!

Ugh, her, Lily, crazy Siamese cross-eyed cat that walks around with her tongue hanging out and has the loudest meow I have ever heard in my life... they are ALL impregnated. There are so many kittens to be had! Josh wants one when they get here. My guess is he will get one of Lily's. She is super tame and so most likely her kittens will be also. Plus they will be so long-haired and multicolored and adorable! I have never given a kitten away in my life. But if it goes to him, I would be fine with that. He has other pets, I know he would keep it inside, and I would get to see it often. Conjugal cat visits!

I am distraught AGAIN and it's still about this whole college thing. I'm thinking I may just go on and further my education anyway. Even if one vet does train me to become a vet tech, what if I lose my job for some reason? I'll have to be a receptionist for another few years before another will train me! I absolutely hate when you have your future so planned out and then something just throws it completely off-balance. I HAVE to have structure. I freak out if things change.

This is annoying.

You can't save everything and everyone, and that is a shame.
I sit around and think of the way everything should be.
How I wish that people didn't have to die from preventable diseases, how they didn't have to be faced with preventable homelessness and other tragedies, how I wish that children didn't have to deal with abuse day-to-day, how I wish that everyone could finally be "equal" because even though it is against the law to discriminate, you would have to be blind to not know it still goes on... how the lives of animals would finally be viewed as meaningful.
I think about it so much that it upsets me because I can't really do anything. I'm not famous, I'm not rich, I can't start a charity, I can't donate to the ones that already exist as much as I would like. And people are way too stubborn to see your viewpoint. Feeling helpless is about the worst feeling.

ANYWAY. I absolutely cannot wait until the semester is over. I really have a lot of work that I need to get out of the way, though. I procrastinate way too much.

Dad told me that I should just take out a student loan to buy a car. That way I could buy a really nice one, like a new one, and I could use the money I make from my job to pay for insurance payments. BUT, I wouldn't be able to take out a student loan until the new semester and likely wouldn't get the money until September. I suppose I could pay for it out of pocket until then. I don't know what to do I guess. I just really need a car one way or the other.

Today... I don't really know what to think about today.
I can't decide if today was a relief or if I just feel useless now!
I learned that apparently you don't even have to go to school to be a veterinary technician, that is sort of a disappointment just because I was looking forward to going to Morehead. But Josh and I are getting a place together regardless once I get a car... which will probably be around the same time frame as it would've been.

You can go to school to do that, but if you work at a vet's office as a receptionist or assistant, they normally will hire you just because you're familiar with everything. There are some tests I would have to take to become licensed, and I would take the one that would make me a Registered Vet Tech. I just don't know what to do because I don't know which path would be best. I don't know anyone with this job! I am going to have to get a job at a vet or animal hospital soon, and I would have to keep it for a year anyway if I wanted to get into Morehead's vet tech program. So I suppose my information will all be there. I'm just afraid they won't hire me because they'll see that I'm young and think that I have no idea what my ambitions are. I guess I'm just used to being underestimated.

I'm finishing my Associate's in Science at the very least.

Who knew that it would have been so hard to find a dang sea green bathroom rug? I wanted my bathroom done in my favorite color is all. I had to settle for aquamarine, which is still pretty. At least my bathroom doesn't look like someone ate a bunch of Andy Warhol daisies and vomited all over my toiletries.

I'm really, really slacking in the weight loss department. I keep saying I'm at a plateau, but that's not even it. Because I could lose more if I wanted. My body's not refusing, I'm just getting lazy.Which really sucks because I bought a really pretty green bathing suit today and I would like to not look like a big flab monster when I wear it. I even had to make a new weight loss chart because I wasn't meeting my weekly weight loss goal and it was getting depressing to look at the fact that I was TEN pounds behind.

Ew.

Also, I am just annoyed at everything but this whole "Punk Goes ____" is killing me one Boston song at a time. Those bands could not be considered punk whatsoever. I know it's going to be horrible just because Punk Goes Crunk was absolutely horrible. It's basically the same bands. Only I couldn't care less about "crunk". But I take classic rock very seriously, it is very legitimate! They are embarrassing themselves! They obviously aren't even qualified to sing classic rock, they did not even pick the best songs. You can't do a whole album dedicated to classic rock and not even do Van Halen, stupid asses. I should have taken this challenge on by myself. I probably will.

I am so distraught.

If you have been reading my blog, you know that I am going to Morehead State in about a year, and you know that Josh has promised to go with me. This is obviously a HUGE deal. I accidentally told my grandma today and I kinda... intended to not do that. She's really... spiritually aware. And very against the whole "living in sin" thing.

So a week ago she is telling me that I need to not ever get married, that men will just mess up my life entirely and I'll regret everything (while my grandpa is in the background saying, "I'm RIGHT HERE"). Today she literally tells me for an hour that I have to get married at age twenty so that I don't upset anyone. It just bugs me to no end that she is so dead set against this that she would rather I get married and regret it, not go at all, or be alone in a town I have never even driven through.

She literally said to me, "WHAT IF THE LORD COMES". To which I replied: "Then I suppose I will be living with two guys. And I'm not about to marry God, he seems a little anal".

Now then. It may seem normal for a very... again... "spiritually aware" 72 year old woman to act this way. My cousin lived with her boyfriend when she was, what? 16, 17 years old. No one said anything. They got married when she was 18 or 19 and she is obviously extremely unhappy. My other cousin lives with every boyfriend she gets. Again, no one says anything. But when it comes to me, I just may as well be selling myself to every tourist that comes through the town looking to catch a bluegill. And I will obviously be pregnant within a week.

I haven't "broken the news" to my parents or my grandparents on my other side. But I'm guessing they will react similarly. And once again... my cousin lived with his girlfriend for quite some time, no one said anything. My other cousin found out she was 5 weeks pregnant on the 4 week anniversary of her marriage. I assume you can guess what happened next! Yes, that is right, no one said anything.

I'm sure no one wants to disappoint their grandparents. But today just made me so mad. It did make me realize something though. My grandma asked, "What would your dad say?", and honestly my dad is the LAST person I want to disappoint, but my answer was, "I don't care". And I was being very genuine. I don't care. Because it isn't about them. And I don't think it's fair for everyone to just bank on me to be the person to not disappoint them. Not ONCE in my life have I ever done something or refrained from doing something solely to not disappoint someone or hurt their feelings. I'm not starting today, I'm not starting next year. If I disappoint anyone, they will just have to be disappointed.

I'm doing what is best for me, not what is best for a po-dunk Southern Baptist church. Sorry, grandmas. If I didn't disappoint you, no one would. I'm doing it out of love, it's called being considerate.

I went to Red Lobster today with my parents and Josh and I am not going to be able to eat for three days. Which is fine by me. I really need Zumba tomorrow to work me extra hard. I ate literally 3 pounds of lobster, and I drank my whole weight in Mocha Frappuccino.

Today was a really good day to go to the mall, I got some good deals.



I bought this for Josh, and I bought one for myself, on clearance for $14.

I also bought another one, similar to that one, except green, teal, blue, and yellow. Also for $14.
I bought a grey tank top for $8.

I also got a free v neck tee from Aeropostale, totally free of cost, thanks to Seventeen magazine.

I am so ready for my English class specifically to end.
I don't think that I have ever wanted a break so badly!
I already had quite a bit to look forward to this summer, I am also adding Relay for Life to the list.

Sorry for the new ads below the posts, guys. I'm hoping that SOMEONE will read my blog and hope to follow one of those links in hopes of making me some cash.

Today was very needed.
I went to the movies with Zach and Emily and said hello to some other pretty neat people.
We saw Date Night with Steve Carrell and Tina Fey, and I totally recommend it. We all laughed so hard that I had to look in the mirror when I got home to make sure I hadn't developed abs. No such luck.
I also realized that I barely have friends my own age! They are either quite a bit younger or quite a bit older (though not like fifty... except my dad and grandma are two of my favorite friends!) That's not even pathetic, that is adorable and you will think so as well.

Tomorrow there is a Zumbathon going on at SCC and I would totally go for $10. I think it goes to charity anyway. But I have stupid class tomorrow, through the whole. entire. thing. Luckily, my aunt and cousin liked Zumba enough to want to go every week now!

Sunday is Josh's birthday. He will finally be 19! I've only been 19 for a few months now but I feel so much older than him. Don't know why. I'm taking him to Red Lobster! Actually, I really just wanted to go to Red Lobster, so I invited him along. He doesn't know that. He follows my blogs but I can guarantee he doesn't read them. I'm paying, though. Wouldn't it be horrible if I didn't? We are going to the mall and I hope to pick up some new duds. ALSO. MOCHA FRAPPUCCINOS FOR EVERYONE. Or at least me.

I'm really excited for things to come this year! I get to get a job (HAVE to get a job, really. To get into Morehead's vet tech program, you must have one year's experience in petcare- and owning a metric butt ton of cats does not count, I'm afraid). But it'll be around animals and I am totally fine with that. That will also buy me a car. Killing two birds with one stone! It must be an SUV... some sort of Napoleon complex thing I've got going on I think. It must run and it must not be dark green. Lime green or teal or sea green even would be totally fine.

I can't WAIT until the fair. Zach, Emily, and I have already made plans to go together and that will be super fun. They are some of my favorite folks. I can't wait until I lose all of my weight, I am making good progress I think. Joshua also gets paid vacation starting this summer. Maybe he will decide to go see his Dad. Maybe he will decide to bring me along. There would be a trip to the beach in it for me. And I've never been so that would be super exciting.

I am also really excited (though nervous) to move to Morehead with Josh even though that isn't for another year or so. I'm so glad that he has decided to go with me, I don't know what I would do without him! He sacrifices a lot for me and it makes me feel so special. My family will probably look down on us living together. But I can't help it, I am NOT going alone. My mom has a huge fear of me being alone like that so that is probably why she is the only member of my family who supports it (or at least chooses that option as opposed to me being fair game for rape and robbery). It is a small town, smaller than Somerset even, and that is a relief. I was terrified when I thought I'd have to go to Lexington. Not that it's a huge city but way bigger than I am used to. The people seem to be nice so that will be a welcome change...

And I really want a baby orangutan now.
It's a good thing I'm not allowed to have all of the animals I want.
I would staaaaank.

If there is one thing that I hate more than absolutely anything, it is when one of my pets are sick and I can't do anything about it.
I have a male cat right now who is really sick, and I don't know what is wrong with him.
He's having trouble breathing, there is mucus all over him, and it's really pitiful.
He is really old, so maybe that is the cause. I am hoping it is something that can be fixed.
My dad is getting antibiotics from the vet  for him tomorrow, so I suppose we'll see.
I also have ANOTHER kitten with an ear infection. She is acting just like Heineken did when he had one.
She is not nearly as bad, though, so we are also getting some antibiotics for her before it gets any worse.
I feel so guilty when I have sick pets though, because I feel like I should be able to come to their rescue and I can't. :(

I'm finally going to Zumba today.
And I'm really excited, other than my stomach is hurting and it should stop or that will make for a bad experience.
I have watched numerous amounts of this on Youtube and I think I am probably going to be horrible at it.
I'm always really bad at mirroring what other people do.

Other than that, I think that my cat Lily may be pregnant.
She's been acting really weird lately. She grooms herself non-stop and her personality has changed.
She wants virtually nothing to do with anyone, which is normally how she is except with me.
But she is acting that way with me now and it kind of makes me upset.
I'm so jealous of her kittens, you guys! :(
She'll be so preoccupied with nursing her stupid babies that she won't have time for cuddles.

Anyway, I had a pretty good Easter. It turned out better than I thought it would because it didn't storm.
I really miss going on egg-hunts. Especially because I always got the Goose Egg at my church.
Old people think that a dollar is sooo much to little kids, but I always thought I was getting really ripped off.
Like I should come home from church with a t-shirt that said, "Jesus rose from the grave and all I got was this lousy dollar".

There is an upside to your parents still thinking that you are five years old though.
You always get candy on Easter and Halloween. :)

I'm also really mad at my cousin, for telling me that he apparently found my missing cat when it was a dang ole possum. I cried, you guys. Not joking. It really wasn't even a clever joke. He really isn't funny at all. He must be Jewish. My cats are one thing that you just do not joke about. They are very legitimate and I take them very seriously. Besides, ole boy, the possum really resembles your ex-girlfriend way more than it resembles my cats. Come to think of it, I believe I saw it making out with your best friend so it actually is a possibility that it was, in fact, your ex-girlfriend.

Dear fat redneck at Wal-Mart:

No. I do not have time to argue with you. I am willing to bet that there is something somewhere that needs to be either milked or eaten. I have things to do. Walk on.

SO with that being said.
Did you guys know that I, in fact, am just a big ole freak?
I just don't have enough Budweiser muscle shirts and Reeboks in my closet these days.

Uh... no, sir. This is why you and all of your 350 pounds are walking through the crafts section of Wal-Mart alone. You're lucky I was looking at paintbrushes and not lumber.

Why does this shit aaaalways have to happen?
Tomorrow was going to be a fabulous day.
And now it probably isn't.

Guess who has lost 25 pounds. That is right. Me.
Oh, and guys. Just because I don't ask your opinion on things doesn't mean I don't want you to give it anyway.

Elite Eight my butt.

Boy oh boy is my biscuit burnt.
If you care absolutely nothing about basketball, you will not care about this blog post.

I have never screamed at the TV like I did tonight. And I watch The Price is Right a LOT.
We. Lost. To. West. Virginia. They're not even good. That's why it's so disappointing.
We have the best defense team in college basketball and it totally sucked tonight.
We were so intent on getting three-pointers (only one of which we made, by the way) that we completely overlooked the insiders.

We've beat every team so far in the tournament by at least 25 points, and we lose tonight, by what, nine? I don't even remember. Fuuuuuuuck.

At least Demarcus Cousins got a good shot in on De'Sean Butler's groin.

And Josh is totally convinced that he can just nuke the whole state of West Virginia and it'll totally just be fine.

IN BRIGHTER NEWS! I tried for forever to get Joshua's cat in my lap. He tried and tried to tell me that she wouldn't because she hates laying in people's laps. But she crawled up into mine, and slept with her face on my hand. Awwwe. She stayed there until Josh scared her out of the room by screaming. That he is going to nuke West Virginia.

I have now lost 22 pounds.
I am so proud of myself it's stupid!

I bought Wii Fit Plus this afternoon and I was so excited all day. I couldn't wait to get home and play it.
I was really hesitant to make my body profile, I figured it would just end up in me being fat and depressed.
But really, it made me feel tons better. My BMI is significantly lower than a month ago, and it turns out that I am four pounds lighter than my regular scale has been telling me!

My scale wants me to cry but my Wii Fit has come to my rescue.

Several months ago (5, 6?), I stepped on the scale to see my highest weight ever and it seriously put me in this deep depression. Since then, I have lost 20 pounds.I really haven't even been motivated and trying until about a month ago, though. So it really makes me confident that I can meet my goal of at least 130-120 by July or August.

Other than that... I got a new cat!
Actually, he just showed up at my house.
He is HUGE, like the size of a sort-of small dog.
He was super scared of people at first but I finally got him to come to me and learned that he is actually really tame.

Josh named him Joben.

I've gained 3 pounds. Not surprised but very unsatisfied.
I got my Coastal Scents 88 palette today and I'm really excited!
I also got tons more samples. I keep forgetting what all I ordered so it's like Christmas every time I go to the mailbox.
I'm not going to go into a bunch of political ramblings about the newly passed healthcare reform, because honestly I don't care enough to act like it's going to affect me. But if you are under your parents' health insurance in the first place, and it's easily paid for every time you need to go to the doctor, don't complain about it. It's just annoying. It's funny to see all of these "STOP BARACK OBAMA" campaigns. He's not the unabomber. He's not going to turn us over to Al Quaeda. Chill, and be grateful that Sarah Palin's biggest responsibility is her grandson with Down's Syndrome, and not the country.

That's the biggest rant I have for today.

My aunt's decided she doesn't want to do Zumba anymore so I'm going to have to take matters into my own hands. I'll just download and burn videos onto DVDs and do it on my own time. I've also wanted to buy Wii Fit for a while now but I completely forgot about it until someone else mentioned it. Now that it seems really likely that I'll get new scholarships, and will definitely get my other ones renewed, I can probably go buy it. I just need to be sure to save enough for my tat.

I think that's about all I have today, uninteresting as it may be.